Stranger in my house

Who are you


These clothes u wear, where did u get them, they look so unfamiliar
Those shoes you wear, the way you walk, cupid cant seem to get near you

When u come in, parents don’t look at u the same
They see the mission written in ur eyes

Strip her down, dip her down ,dick her down, leave her…..{{down}}….

Milk the cow, don’t buy the cow
Scheming salesmen

He wouldn’t treat me like u did/do/will
He would adore me, he wouldn’t ignore me like you did/do/will

Ur hug doesn’t feel the same, nor is your kiss
Im finally realizing I was a pawn in ur game….THIS I WILL NOT MISS…

“…. could it be
That the stranger is me
Have I changed so drastically?
Is it I want more for me?
And you remain the same”

IS ANYTHING IM DOING BRAND NEW
OR IS IT YOU?
SHIRTS ALWAYS HAVE POWER OVER THE BLOUSE
SAY GOODBYE TO THE BADGUY MR “STRANGER IN MY HOUSE”

6/22/09

4 in the morning

Staying up til 4 in the morning to give you all of me
Staying quiet so that youll never leave
Giving you a part of me
Only leaves the next one with Pieces of me

Well now its 8 in the morning and nothing has changed
Ur smile , ur swagger, ur ways
6 hrs ago we seemed so close
But if sex isnt invovled you seem so far away

its 6 in the evening and i havent heard from you all day
How was work, what was for lunch
These are the things i cannot say
For u dont ask, and we never commicate through out the day

Its 10 at night and sleep should overcome
yet its at your place where i should come
NOt out to dinner or a movie, or to comfort me from my hard day
with u is where im supposed to stay...so i say yes instead of nay

Its 2 in the morning
and we just got finish..i wish the would last til the dawning
u sleep in ur side i sleep on mine, its like we arent here together
Just 2 bodies in one bed..inches away but damn those inches strech miles further

Im up at 4 in the morning watching you sleep
You cant feel me, like u used to....what do u dream
Of another to feel the space?
Where we lay?

24hrs in a day history repeats itself all too often..Finally ill say "Enough!!!"

6/30/09

::DrAiNeD::

Lost in a state of constant motion
I find myself at the same place again
So familiar to me, but yet I am lost
Destination right ahead but nothing but nail up front
Should i step on the nails to get there
"it prickles, it hurts," should i keep going? do i dare

So i walked, a million miles to my destination
so excited once i saw what i had been inticipating
a vision so beautiful it made me smile within
something so pure it didnt come from this world of sin

I started running, couldnt feel the pain
what pain, this doesnt hurt at all
always sunny days no rain
and i knew ud catch me if id fall

I stood there amazed that I came this far
not feeling any pain, oblivious to the scars
waiting for you to embrace me
but you didnt,you pushed me away, about faced me

What to do now? I came this far
how i do back to where i once started, with all these scars
Im pained
Im drained
::insane::


As long as it took me to get there
Im back at start in milli seconds
Staring at the sign "Destination ahead"
rain pouring with the sun beconing

A man appears, holding this huge umbrella
i thought of running, but was too tired
i stayed, dryed myself off ( it took forever)
eyes wide shut he pryed

them open and took my hand
to scared to move, for i didnt kno my way, i asked this man


"Can you hold my hand and be my guide?"
Thru this Dark Knight...

when love is the problem

To her loves the jail, so she stays on the run
You give her money, she want love
You give her love, shes back at money
She'll run from man to man
Making plans to plan

From bad experiences we try not to judge
but u cant shake the feeling it wont budge
that he's the same, and ur to blame
but that wasnt me, he, thats not even my name

what can u solve then
when love is the problem
he can make u happy
but u wont let him in


can a turtle live outside its shell
u feel naked, onstage, til the crowd yells
get down, this isnt like you jay
fine i will, i guess im not used to being happy or feeling this way
it doesnt suit me, doesnt fit at all
this shirt is too big and my shoes are too tall
i feel awkward and pass up the chance
to dance..
unless im dancing with you.

Its so much easier to run away, scared that itll fail
right back into the arms of mr yea


Ill try this new thing
a make over from the inside out
you'll see that new glow about me
you'll see my smile =) instead of a pout
I want you here
is like music to my ears♪♫♪♪♫♪♪♫♪♪♫♪




*****Please give me a reason to Love, Again******



{{ how quickly things change...wrote this 7/7/09...it all fell down the drain 7/8/09 oh well smh}}